Under attack again…SOS!

Well, no surprises here. I am being attacked again. However, as has been the case many previous times, God has provided ahead of time for my needs. How can I allow myself to doubt, to become frazzled or rattled? He always comes through. He always has a plan in place. All I have to do is control my instinctive reactions. Instinctive because they have been engrafted in my being over many years of turmoil and poor reactions. I made many things harder than they had to be because of my lack of faith or complete disregard for what God would have expected of me in any given situation. I have suffered unnecessarily and made others around me suffer also. Now I know what was missing….

I believed in God. I had accepted Christ. Prayed to God. Read my Bible. I re-dedicated my life more than once. Changed churches. You name it.  But there was always something missing. Peace had alluded me all those years. During the inbetween times when I was out of church and lost in the world I could not even dream of knowing peace in my life. I thought that turmoil was normal. I was wrong. There is a peace that no one can describe… they can try, but it will never be good enough. No painting, no computer generated graphics, no drug any where…. nothing can duplicate the beauty of the peace that The Holy Spirit can place in your life.

Its amazing how peaceful you can be when things are exploding all around you in your life.  Knowing God has control, releasing control to Him and riding the flow of the Spirit is difficult to say the least. However it is possible and when it happens it is amazing to see God work. I look forward with great anticipation to the day when I feel that peace and know God is working at the very moment a trial hits. I am getting stronger praise God. Jesus Christ is my guide, my counselor, my instructor, my mentor and friend. He wants what is best for me, He wants for me what will truly make me happy. Something I obviously haven’t been able to find on my own.

I am struggling to release all areas of my life to The LORD’s control. He could take control anytime He wanted and yet He allows me to decide. I choose to release my life into His control. Praise God for His love, for His Son, and for His Holy Spirit.