Time and Time Again

 

Time and time again I catch myself saying ‘twenty years ago” or more and then I stop and realize that I am actually aging.  I am getting older in my body for sure if not in my mind also. What a true revelation that was for me. In my mind I am still the same person I was when I was sixteen years old. Of course there are differences. New habits, good and bad, as well as knew knowledge and experience but deep down at the core I am still “me”. I am still a day dreamer. I am still an optimist. I am still talented and intelligent. I am still determined and head strong. I am the same bowl of soup I was when I was created in my mother’s womb… I just have a few more seasonings than when I started out.

So, what’s different now that I believe in Christ…. now that I acknowledge His existence, His importance. His relevance, His dominance, His diety, His charity, His grace, His love, His compassion, His forgiveness…. what is different? And to that I say EVERYTHING!

I am, at my core, what He created me to be. I am, at my core, the exact and perfect creation of the Lord. I am, at my core, all He wanted me to become. But, now that I am living and striving to know and serve the Lord Jesus Christ everything else has changed. I am not the “hopeless” person I once was… I am not the angry person I once was,,, I am not the depressed and lost soul that once wondered aimlessly through this life. I AM a new creation! I AM a  person with boundless hope. I AM a child of God! I AM an heir to the greatest throne that ever existed! I AM saved! I AM forgiven! I AM Loved!

I am not perfect, not yet anyway, but I am not the lost and dying soul that I was in the past. The darkness of sin and the world had blinded me for years. The desease and affliction of addiction and desire had poisoned my soul and clouded my mind. The distactions of this world were detouring  me from my planned destination. I was standing on the edge of eternity for many years.

Praise God He rescued me from my self generated abyss. Praise God He never forgot His plans for me. Praise God He IS faithful to His word. I cried out to Him and He saved me. I called upon Him and He came to my rescue. He has overcome every obstacle in my life that I was willing to release to His control. He has allowed me to experience the consequences of my own actions and has always provided me with a way out. He is my strength! He is my strong tower! He is my shelter and He IS MY GOD!

What else could I possibly say?! ….Besides… AMEN!

The Evidence of Our Lives

The Evidence of Our Lives.

If our lives were crime scenes, what kind of evidence would be left behind? Stop and think for a moment… … … What do you see when you look about the scene your life created for investigators? What evidence will be found at the scene of our lives?

There are three types of “spiritual” evidence that will be obvious. First there’s the evidence of “Self”, then there’s the evidence of the “World” and finally we have evidence of “Christ”. All three of these will be evident at the scene of our life. That’s right, all three. There in the scene of our life is evidence, each and every one, of Self, the World and Christ without exception. Yes, even the non-believer will have at least trace evidence of Christ mixed in with the World and Self  lying about the scene. My life scene is littered with Self and the World. It is a truly messy scene.

Now, just for demonstration purposes, let me illustrate my point by using my own life scene as an example.  Any investagator would immediatly begin to find undeniable evidence of “Self” splattered all about the scene of my life. Even a rookie could not miss the writing on the wall. “S E L F” written in my blood and scratched there by my own hand.

They would soon find latent prints left by the world in almost every knook and cranny throughout the scene. Through the use of dusting powder, ultra violet photography and computer technology it will not take long to identify the conspirators. Alcohol, drugs, sexual immorality, lying, stealing, cheating and many others had left their fingerprints all over the scene. It would be obvious from the list of offenders that I had many enemies. Which one would do me in?

Finally after searching high and low, sifting through every fiber they could find, the farensics guys would put together a picture of evidence left in trace amounts throughout the scene of my life. They would discover as they moved deeper into the scene that the evidence of Self and the World were less predominant in the end of their investigation. The evidence would show a tilting of the scales in favor of Christ. The detectives would find that the blood trail left by self had diminished to a drip and that the fingerprints of the world were now smudged, scarcely visible or non-existant in many areas of the scene of my life. And there, at the end of the investigation they find a pile of evidence suggesting without a doubt that Jesus had been there.

I had no driver’s license for many years. Evidence of not obeying traffic laws and/or not taking care of the problem. I have been in pain 24 hours a day for twenty-seven years. Evidence of bad decisions and falling asleep behind the wheel of a car moving at seventy miles per hour. Two divorces and several failed relationships demonstrate a lack of God involved in picking my mate. Evidence of picking a woman for all the wrong reasons is all over each of those relationships. DUI’s, bad decisions, broken promises, lost jobs, money struggles, vehicle problems and more clearly show the presence of drugs and alcohol in my life. The list goes on and on but I think we get the point.

Christians are not perfect and Lord knows their lives are not perfect either. They suffer many trials and tribulations and it almost becomes unbearable at times. That’s ok, because it isn’t about the here and now… it’s about what’s at the end of this life. It’s about what’s on the other side. Glory! Joy! Love! Peace! Happiness! ETERNITY!

What the evidence showed in the past and what it will show in the future are not bound together. We do not have to continue leaving the same trail of evidence throughout our lives. We have the power to change the scene of our life from a blood bath to a Norman Rockwell painting! What can not be transformed at the hands of our Saviour? Christ can accomplish anything! There is nothing too hard for the Lord!!!

The scene of my life has developed some new evidence in the last several years. Evidence of Christ. Evidence of church and fellowship. Evidence of charity and love. Christ has brought out in me things that I did not know existed. He has stirred my heart in areas I never dreamed could affect me.

I am still unworthy. I am still a mess. But PRAISE GOD I am so much better than I was before. The evidence of Christ in my life shines through frequently nowadays. The change in me is evident to many who have known me for years. The change is evident to me in many areas as well. I still have a long way to go and I pray that no matter how far I have to go that I will have the Lord with me the whole way! I am nothing without Christ! Am I strong enough to make it? We’ll see, but for now… I think I’ll fight the good fight… or at least the best fight that I can! God help me to create evidence of You and Your Son and the Holy Spirit at the scene of my life! God help us all!

There will be a day!

There will be a day…. I long for that day. I hope for that day. I wait upon that day. I pray for that day. No more tears…. wiped away by the hand of God. No more pain…healed from our pain by the new life and new body we will receive. No more sorrow(tears)…. nothing to cry about… nothing to be angry about…. nothing to lie about…. no jealousy…. no envy…. no negative emotions ever again! Sounds unbelievable doesn’t it?!

It is within our grasp! It is possible! It is certain if we hold on to Jesus! Just keep holding on. Don’t ever let go. Don’t ever give up! Struggle on… continue fighting your way forward through the storm. Face the enemy head on! You have the Lord going before you…. you need not hesitate! Believe! Have faith! Praise His name and He will show himself to you! Give Him your broken heart and He will mend it! He will refill it with the joy He had intended for you from a time before time! Hold on to Him! Chase after Him! Seek Him! Shout for joy at the top of your lungs!!! Praise God! He can do anything! What is too hard for the Lord?

NOTHING!!!!! Praise God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit!

What if today is my last day on earth?

Life….? What is the meaning of lfe….?

What a question. What is the meaning of life? I can’t answer that question, can you? Life is an amazing thing. It is an enormous thing. Once you reach a certain age and you look back over the life you have lived and then you look forward and realize how much time could be remaining it is enough to blow your mind. I have only been an adult for twenty seven years. I could live another fifty or more. That’s amazing.

But then again, I could die tomorrow. So, if it were true that my life were going to end tomorrow would it be fair to say that today is the most important day of my life? As a Christian I believe that there is a heaven and a hell. So, what I do today decides what happens to my eternal soul tomorrow.  Right?

Life, as with everything in the universe, is made up of many parts and pieces. Just as an object like the moon is made up of many elements life too has its protons and neutrons.  Every second of every minute could altar our eternal life to come. Each minute of each hour we could turn our back on God and face our eternal destruction. Every hour of every day temptations are thrown in our paths. What do we do?

Hold on to Jesus! Call on God! Receive the Holy Spirit! Absorb the word of God with every fiber of our beings. Pray without ceasing! Pray for others who need the Lord’s help. Get involved in church ministries and events and functions. Seek Him with all our hearts, minds, souls and strength. Spend every waking moment with Him. Feel the presence of His Spirit within us. That is what we can do. We can strive to know Him more. To have more of Him in our lives. We can give more of ourselves and our resources to the church and vauluable ministries in our area. There is so much we can do.

Does this “earn” us a ticket into heaven? No. Jesus earned that ticket for us when He, who was blameless, accepted the punishment for our sins and died a horrible death so that we could be made right with the Father. But doing these things will strengthen and prepare us for the moment of Jesus’ return. Wouldn’t you rather be reading the bible to someone when He came back than to be yelling at someone in traffic? Wouldn’t it be better to meet Jesus with a clear mind than to be stoned or drunk when He comes?

I fight daily to maintain the right mindset and to accomplish things for the Lord whether in me or in some ministry. I pray that I grow stronger in my walk with God. I pray that I am busy doing His work when He returns. I pray that He will also call me a good and faithful servant. How amazing would that be? To meet Jesus face to face, to physically be in His presence, to feel His Glory radiating all around you?  That’s what I live for each day whether I am successful or not in my daily existence. I frequently fail to handle situations as I should. I frequently ask the Lord to forgive me and not to give up on me.

What if today were my last day here on earth? What would be remarkable about my final day? What would be different today? What would I do with this day if I knew it were my last? Would I call everyone I know and tell them I love them? Would I give my money to a charity, a mission or a needy family? Would I tell someone how great I really thought they were? Maybe apologize for some wrong I had done them? Would I hug many necks today? Would I appreciate the beauty of the blue sky? The smell of spring floating by on a breeze? What would be different about today if it were my last day?

Let’s live like today is our last day. Praise god!

To Have Faith or Not To Have Faith….That Is The Question?

To Have Faith or Not To Have Faith….That Is The Question?

Recently I began to realize how much I was fretting over things almost entirely beyond my control. Through the course of some good Christian fellowship, bible study, Chapel Night at the mission, Sunday Service and more these last two weeks I have heard loud and clear that I should not only strive to live a sin free life but that I should have more faith in God. More faith that He already knows my needs and knew them before they were needed. More faith that He will provide for myself and my children because He is faithful to His word. More faith that I have nothing to worry about with such an awesome God going before me.

So, I have made the conscious choice to have more faith. Problems have arisen in the last two weeks but now I stop and think. Then I say to myself “I have faith in God.” and I believe the Lord will provide. You know what? He hasn’t let me down yet. Not once. Not for a second. He is truly a loving and merciful God. I know this because I know myself and all my shortcomings. I don’t deserve any of the blessings He has given me recently or any ever. Why does He love me so? The only answer I can give is found in the Bible… “God is love.” Amen!

So to answer the original question… I will have faith! Faith that God’s word is the complete truth. Faith that His Son Jesus Christ died for the sins of all mankind.  Faith that He rose again! Faith that He is seated at the right hand of the Father. Faith that He has a plan, a perfect plan for each of us, a plan for our lives that far exceeds anything our imaginations can dream up. How far could the Lord take me if I really let go and had complete faith in Him? What height would be unatainable with God leading the way? What happiness could be found else where that could compare to the joy unspeakable that the God of the heavens can put in our hearts?

I choose FAITH! Life is hard but I have faith that God can get me through it. Pain and suffering, hardships and catastrophies, sacrifice and expense seem to be the normal lifestyle these days. Many people live that life. How many, I wonder, have joy in their hearts during those bad times that seem to never end? How many, do you suppose, praise God for the blessings that come in the middle of the storms? How many lose their faith completely? I pray very few but suspect that I am wrong.

Father God help us all to have more faith in you! Help us to live sin free lives. Gives us that joy unspeakable that only you can provide! Thank you for all your blessings past, present and future! Thank you for your Son! Thank you for the Holy Spirit! We love you because You first loved us!! In Jesus’ name Amen!

Free To Be Me

Praise God I am free to be me!

Those days when I wake up in a bad mood and the morning takes a sharp downward spiral, those times I am distant and detatched from those closest to me and when I am rude, thoughtless, grumpy, pushy, sarcastic and just plain ornery, that’s not really me.  I’m not that guy who just cut someone off in traffic when he could have been polite and let them have the right of way. That’s not me! Not often anyway, praise God.

That used to be me all the time. Angry, stressed, panicked, paranoid, selfish, deceitful, manipulative, inconsiderate and the center of my universe is who I used to be. I was an altogether different person than I am today. I had nothing spiritually, I was emotionally ravaged and my mental state had deminished through years of turmoil, betrayal and abuse. I expected bad things to happen and was rarely disappointed. I thought of suicide and half heartedly attempted it once or twice. Depression hung over my world from sun up to sun down and usually through the night as well. What a dark and lonely world I was trapped in for so many years. Praise God nothing lasts forever!

The Son came up over my world one day. He shined His light into my dreary existence and gave my life meaning. I have always known who Jesus was and what He did here on earth. I was saved at an early age, so early I don’t remember the exact moment and I was Baptize when I was small enough that I had to stand on a cinder block to keep my head above the water.  I knew of Him, knew many of His words and had grown up with His picture hanging on the walls of our home and a Bible on the coffee table. However throughout my life I never really knew Him personally. He was the guy who died for me, the one who saved me from my sin and the reason for Christmas and Easter and Sunday School and on and on…. but I never really knew Him.

I have a totally different view of my life since being delivered from my world of darkness. I see a purpose, reason or plan behind everything that happens. I feel led by events in my life, by sermons, by the words of the Holy Bible and the music I listen to everyday. I am prompted by His Spirit to do and say what He wants me to do and say. Not that I do what I should all the time and I am sure I have firmly planted my foot deep in my mouth on more than one occassion but I am trying. I truly desire it in my life. I am getting better day by day. Stronger as I travel the path He has laid out for me.

I am struggling to grow in my walk with the Lord. I want to be right beside Him everywhere He leads me. I want to say the words that He puts in my heart. I want to do the things that His Spirit prompts me to do when others need my help. It is my desire to be instrumental in bringing others to know Christ as I now know Him. On a personal level. I consider Him not only my Savior but my friend, my confidant, my adviser and my guide. He is the reason my life does not fall apart everytime something bad happens to me or my children. He is the reason I do not lay down and give up. He is the reason I struggle endlessly to maintain that relationship through life’s chaotic happenings.  He is all there is in my life that is beautiful. Without the Lord Jesus Christ in my life today I would have nothing.  I would be nothing.

What is there in this world that is worth trading my soul for possessing it? What can I have here on earth during this struggle called life that would be worth my eternal soul? Eternity. What would I give up eternity to have?

Nothing! There is nothing here on this little world worth trading for my eternal soul. Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior and I will serve Him until I die. I may not always do the perfect thing at the perfect time but I will strive to grow in my personal relationship with Him and to serve Him in more ways everyday. I want to help my church to grow and prosper, I want to help my family to strengthen their belief in and their relationship with Jesus Christ and I want to help bring Jesus to this lost and dying world. There are so many people out there just like my old self. They live daily in misery because they have no purpose in life other than the struggle they face every day. I want to lead them to the one who can lift that burden. I want to introduce them to the one who can shine joy and peace and love into their dreary days. The one who can lift them above all of life’s troubles. Above all the pain that life inflicts. He is the only way, the only truth and the only life. Jesus is everything. He will bring us through anything life can throw at us.

That is why I am free to be me. Because Jesus gives me the inner strength, hope, joy and peace to face each day as if it were the best day of my life. I don’t have to be grumpy because I’m tired. I have no desire to be distant from those I love. That’s not me. The real me wants to encourage and to inspire. The real me wants to laugh and have fun. Jesus gives me the ability to be me even when my life has exploded for the day. He allows me to be me even when the world tries to distort my personality. He’s the reason I can smile when most would say that I should be crying!

I am FREE to be me in Jesus Christ everyday. Praise God!

A Fire Shut Up In My Bones

 

The first thing I would like to do is to say that God is more wonderful than all the words I could ever write. He’s more glorious than all the words that have ever been written about Him or shall ever be written about Him. There is no masterpiece hanging in any musuem or painted on any ceiling anywhere in this world that could express the beauty and majesty that radiates from our God. He is the most just judge ever to sit on the bench, He is the most merciful  ever to impose  sentence on the guilty, He is the most loving Father ever to rear children, the most gracious Host ever to accomidate his visitors, the most caring guardian of those under protection and He rewards us when we have done nothing to be rewarded for doing.  How amazing our God truly is in all the universe.

I was thinking earlier about the Lord and what He is doing in my life. I have taken a beating the past couple of months. I have been under constant attack from every direction you can imagine. I’ve felt completely alone at times and experienced great lows in my spiritual, mental and emotional strength.

Praise God I was never really alone. Praise Jesus,  He loved me enough to die for me…. but not only me. He died for each and every one of us. He died for you, reading this post, He died for that person working in their front yard. He died for that mother getting her child off to school this mornng. He died for that Dad working hard today to support His family. And what about that person behind the counter at the corner store? Yeah, that’s right He died for everyone. He died for the baby that was just born and for the elderly dying at this very moment. He gave His life for the one loved by everyone and the one who is loved by no one. He died for the nurse working the E.R. and the patient under her care. He died for the police officer responding to a burglary call and for the one committing that crime at this very moment. He died for the emergency workers tending to the accident victims on the interstate and all the disgruntled travelers stuck on the highway because of that accident.  He gave His life for the millionaire in the mansion on the hill and for the one living under a bridge right now. He died for the model citizen and for the menace to society. He died for the politicians and the voters, the able bodied and the afflicted. He gave His life for the school teachers and all their students. He died for the virgin and the whore. He died for the drug addict lighting His crack pipe as you read this. He died for the murderer just as well as his victim. He died for each and every soul in this world today. However, there is no one alive now, there has never been anyone who has ever lived and there will never be anyone born in the future who deserved what Christ did for each and every one of us. A gift can not be earned. It can only be received and hopefully accepted for what it is and appreciated.

I accept my Savior’s gift that He freely gave to me and all the rest of humanity. I thank Him for His sacrifice which has made me right with God. I am covered by His blood which washes me clean. Praise Jesus for sending us the Holy Spirit through whom God speaks directly to our hearts, minds and souls. I have recently wanted to give up. Just to lay down and give up the fight. My joy had been replaced by misery, my peace by strife and my faith had waned and I was flat on my face being beaten down day by day.  Though I felt like I could not handle any more His Spirit would not let me escape. The desire to struggle forward burned inside of me.  I cried out to God many times through this period. Sometimes I felt an immediate response and others I felt nothing. Then I reached a point spiritually and mentally that changed things.

I became very desperate to get my life back on track. To make God the center again. I had let too many things push Him from the center of my life. I cried out to God and asked Him to rescue me, to draw me back, to not give up on me and to save me from my misery. He has done just that. He has put a desire in me to work harder than before, to serve Him with all my strength and with every talent He has given me. A desrie that burns like a fire shut up in my bones. I want to serve the Lord and that is a conscious decision. I want to serve the Lord in any way He lays before more. I desire to serve the Lord more than anything in life. I have allowed many things to detour,  discourage and distract me from that desire but I am getting stronger,  praise God.  He has never given up on me. He will never give up on me. It is I who almost gave up. It is I who must fight harder. It is I who must NEVER give up.

I love the Lord and with His strength and guidance I know that I will fight my way back to the place I was spiritually and then I will exceed that place as the Lord carries me higher. Praise God that He doesn’t give me what I truly deserve. Praise God that He loves me so much He is willing to do anything, including sacrificing His only Son, to save my soul and give me life eternal. Praise Jesus for His death, for His blood and most importantly for His triumphant return from the grave. A return which gives me hope for that day when the Father will raise me from the grave. In that day I will worship all the persons of the Trinity and continue to do so forever. I look forward to that day. What a day that will be! Amen?!

Crying Over Spilled Milk

I’ve been thinking lately, or maybe a better thought is that God has been revealing to me lately that maybe I don’t have it as bad as I think I do. I am beginning to see how blessed I truly am.

The other day I was driving back from Birmingham and there was a wreck on the interstate. Traffic was backed up more than five miles when I came to a crawl behind it. I can only imagine it was more than ten miles long by the time I cleared the accident scene and regained my speed. Forty-five minutes to travel about five miles. Was I being tested? Did I pass?

While I was inching my way towards the site of the accident I prayed that God would help all those involved. The victims, the emergency personnel and the officers, family and friends. Then I began to think of other wrecks I had seen over the years. The aftermath of some was devastating to families and friends and co-workers.  How lucky, how fortunate, how Blessed was I to be driving back instead of riding in an ambulance or a tow truck? Worse yet I could be in a body bag on my way to the morgue.

Suddenly I found myself thinking about hospitals and all of the people in them. Sick and dying, routine and emergency surgeries, physical therapy, cancer, diabetes, heart attacks, and the list goes on. How fortunate am I?

All at once I felt like I was slapped in my face. My problems were like crying over spilled milk. I can’t help but think how much better I have it than what could be and what is for those poor suffering souls. Praise God for what I have and for what He has planned for me, my family and my church.

I ask You Lord to bless those who are suffering Lord. Those in the Hospital Lord need your healing touch, those who have lost loved ones need Your comforting Spirit, those who have become weak under the strain of this life need Your strength. The weary souls need Your protection Lord God, they need You to lift them to new heights, far above the turmoil and pain of this world they are trapped in for a time. Bless us all Lord God, bless each one in the way we truly need and not the way “we think” we need.  Give us the desire to know You more Father, to know Your Word more Father, give us the strength to walk the path You have laid out for us. Help us not to stray from that path Lord, clear the obstacles from our way and give us favorable weather to travel this spiritual journey. Shelter us when the storms roll through Father and shine Your light on us again when the clouds have gone. We love You Lord God, we thank You for who you are and not what you do for us.  We thank you for being love Father. What more could we ask than the Sacrifice You have already made Christ Jesus! Thank You our Savior! Thank You!

The God Who Showed Up!

He’s the God who showed up to save the day. He’s the God who directed the events that lead to victory in the end. He’s the God who loves and delivers His children over and over again. He’s the God who cares so much for us that He is willing to allow us to make our own mistakes. He’s the One who loves us so much He would die for us all.  He had plans in place for our rescue from a time before time. He is the God who will bless those who love Him.  He has mercy beyond imagination. He is the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob. He is The LORD! He’s is the Father who sent His Son for us. His Spirit lives within us if we just ask. How much more could He love us?

Don’t doubt Him, don’t be distracted from your faith by life and its little explosions. God has a plan in place and if we walk in the faith that He has everything in His hands… how can we lose…. no matter the outcome. If the Lord is for us who can stand against us? No one! Nothing! God can and will make a way. He saves us when we deserve to drown in our world of misery created by our own hands. He strengthens us when we can no longer find the strength to carry on. He gives us hope for tomorrow when we can find no hope in the day. The Lord puts a song in our hearts when we are surrounded by the chaotic noise of life. How much more could He love us?

He gave us this amazing world to have dominion over. He laid before us all we need to survive and prosper.  The moon was hung for us to gaze upon in the dark night. The sun to warm our faces in the day. He gave us this amazing life to live, this amazing journey to travel. He has equipped us with what we need for the road ahead, whether we know it or not.

Faith unlocks the door, opens it wide and allows blessings to roll into our lives. God is waiting to bless us all. Nothing could please Him more than to bless His precious children. We are more precious than gold. He wants to free us from the worries of this world. Not that they will go away… they just won’t have the punch they did before. The knowledge that God is on your side is a powerful thing. The true belief in His love and power is nothing short of Amazing.

Praise God for all He has done, all He is doing and all He has planned for tomorrow. Thank You Jesus.

Under attack again…SOS!

Well, no surprises here. I am being attacked again. However, as has been the case many previous times, God has provided ahead of time for my needs. How can I allow myself to doubt, to become frazzled or rattled? He always comes through. He always has a plan in place. All I have to do is control my instinctive reactions. Instinctive because they have been engrafted in my being over many years of turmoil and poor reactions. I made many things harder than they had to be because of my lack of faith or complete disregard for what God would have expected of me in any given situation. I have suffered unnecessarily and made others around me suffer also. Now I know what was missing….

I believed in God. I had accepted Christ. Prayed to God. Read my Bible. I re-dedicated my life more than once. Changed churches. You name it.  But there was always something missing. Peace had alluded me all those years. During the inbetween times when I was out of church and lost in the world I could not even dream of knowing peace in my life. I thought that turmoil was normal. I was wrong. There is a peace that no one can describe… they can try, but it will never be good enough. No painting, no computer generated graphics, no drug any where…. nothing can duplicate the beauty of the peace that The Holy Spirit can place in your life.

Its amazing how peaceful you can be when things are exploding all around you in your life.  Knowing God has control, releasing control to Him and riding the flow of the Spirit is difficult to say the least. However it is possible and when it happens it is amazing to see God work. I look forward with great anticipation to the day when I feel that peace and know God is working at the very moment a trial hits. I am getting stronger praise God. Jesus Christ is my guide, my counselor, my instructor, my mentor and friend. He wants what is best for me, He wants for me what will truly make me happy. Something I obviously haven’t been able to find on my own.

I am struggling to release all areas of my life to The LORD’s control. He could take control anytime He wanted and yet He allows me to decide. I choose to release my life into His control. Praise God for His love, for His Son, and for His Holy Spirit.